I haven't done anything constructive since the last time I posted, hence there was no need to blog. I've been suffering severe bouts of on and off depression for the last few weeks. That's always fantastic. Last week I injured my arm in a horrific skateboarding accident. It still hurts when I rotate my lower arm, but it feels so much better than a week ago.
Sometimes I just want to be someone else. I don't care who, just anyone. I'm really dissatisfied with myself and my life. Maybe if I got out more and tried to do more constructive things I'd feel better. I don't know where to start, though.
There is nowhere I can apply myself, or I haven't found a place to. I want to do all these things with my life, but I have nowhere to start. I want to be a chef (not a short order cook), but I have neither the money to buy ingredients nor anyone to really cook for. I want to be a graphic designer, working on posters and similar media, but I don't have a subject. I want to be a filmmaker, but I have nowhere to just gather some people, pick up a camera and start shooting. I want to be a game designer, but I don't have a platform on which I could create something halfway decent without starting from scratch.
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You don't have anybody to cook for? What are you talking about? I'll be your guinea pig. I always enjoy trying new recipes. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm certainly up for collaboration.
ReplyDeleteThere are resources of everything you want to do. You just have to go and get them yourself.
I'm sure a random shoutout, like on myspace or something, can help you assemble a decent crew.
As for finding a subject... Well, you can only write what you know when you actually know something. Which from the optimistic point of view only means you should go out and experience more things.
I had a horrible dream that you died and we were all so sad, so please don't die.
ReplyDeleteThanks
Um, I'll try not to.
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